Ever get the feeling that you’re just going through the motions, running endlessly on the hamster wheel we call life?

That was me. Living in survival mode, afraid to slow down for fear of everything crashing down if I dared take a moment to slow down and rest. 

So much of my sense of self worth was focused on being productive, efficient, and needing approval or validation from others. I did all the things that I thought a devoted mother does, but often at the expense of my own health.

Which brought me to my knees after a fourth miscarriage that came with the threat of cancer. I always knew that my body was talking to me with the achy joints, the poor sleep patterns, the constant gut issues and hair loss. But the fact that my body just couldn’t support another life inside of me really helped me to see that it was time. 

Time to do the inner work. Time to take the leap and invest not only in my physical health, but my mental health as well.

Since then, I’ve been journeying down the road of somatics and nervous system regulation while combining it with reiki and other healing modalities I’ve encountered along the way.  Making the connection to the mind and how my thoughts, feelings, and beliefs manifest physically in my body was the game changer.

One of the things that helped integrate these teachings was being held in a supportive, loving community of women. A sisterhood. Knowing that I wasn’t alone in my struggles and feeling the safety to soften, to let go of the woman I thought I had to be. Witnessing these powerful, authentic women inspired me and helped me to see that I had those characteristics and qualities I desired within me as well.

It’s been through this work that I finally feel like I have the tools to navigate life as a mother and woman in today’s society. Recognizing patterns and limiting beliefs that are keeping me stuck and surrendering to the inner wisdom inside that wants to come through. 

In this work my relationships with my husband, kids, friends, and family has evolved and transformed in profound ways. Our connections are genuine, where we can be real, vulnerable, and open with one another. I see now more than ever that by taking the time to do my own healing, I'm opening the gates for my daughters to show up more freely and courageously in the world.

By giving myself permission to pause and look inward, I am finding out who I am under all of the layers I've built to protect myself over the years. I respond rather than react (most of the time,) I’m able to feel into my emotions and listen to the messages my body is telling me, and get to know my truest, most authentic self. All shades, all colors, all emotions, and all of her desires. Everyday, she feels more confident in her skin, living her life in full expression. Owning her truth, her power, her radiance. 

You can have this too. Will you let yourself receive it?